Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Currently and Getting beat up by the Cat, among other things

                                                    Taken From the Blog Free the People

Ingredients

 1 cup water
1/4 tsp turmeric powder
1/4 tsp ginger powder
a pinch of cayenne pepper
1tsp fresh lemon juice
Dollop of honey
Bring one cup of water to a boil. You can do this on the stove or in the microwave. I measured out my water into a mason jar and stuck it in the microwave for 3 minutes. Once your water is hot, stir in all of the other ingredients. You can breathe in the steam of the elixir to help clear your sinuses if you are congested. Finish of with a dollop of honey to sweeten and enjoy!


Source: Two Uses For Turmeric In The Fall | Free People Blog http://blog.freepeople.com/2013/10/turmeric-fall/#ixzz2j7Lc0FRe

I am going to try this today it sounds amazing and really yummy

I got my ass beat up by my cat Ceeno, nothing I'm proud of, he of course got a extra long bath and a glare from me!

I went out with the Ladies and got all dressed up and I have to say I had a lot of fun! I'm not one to get dolled up and all that Jazz

Grateful

For having a job♥ spending time with my daughter♥ going on new adventures♥ amazing people in my life♥ working on me♥ having a roof over my head♥ great family♥ new people in my life♥ coffee♥ kitties ♥ fall days ♥ music♥


Monday, October 21, 2013

Different is Beautiful

Sometimes, I feel that I'm left behind. For whatever reason, for the way I am or how I can't seem to get close to anyone. I have a hard time opening up to People. I don't have a problem in bitching or complaining, but I do have a problem with being completely raw with someone. I can do it threw my writing. I might be a little down today because I got stood up, and I'm putting what little energies I have into that feeling. I got stood up by a guy I never knew. It saddens me because right away he never gave me a chance, and I don't understand a thing, I thought of our last conversation and I felt like it went well, he called me beautiful and sweetheart. He always contacted me first and we had great conversations.

sigh

I still had a fun night and I in the wrong run  need to just think on that. Maybe it's just because my ex just vanished from my life and I have those Daddy issues because he too also left never to return. Accept for a Facebook message 34 years later, Even the Ex will eventually email or text me back because  it's a game we have been playing for the past year. I'm over it though, and I know that I deserve better then the crazy Dramatic life that seems to plague me, because of the choices that I have made. I do only have myself to blame. So now what? What do I do? I will keep going I guess because that's all I can, realize and understand that not everyone is going to leave me and I have to put my faith in people. I also need to stop sabotaging myself and putting myself in dramatic situations or reliving the past. It's really time to move forward, and sitting in my bed watching Netflicks is not helping, Canceling plans with friends is not doing anything, letting things past me by is not doing anything for me.

One step at a time lets Do this!!

Monday Motivation
Hugs and Kisses
Heather

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Things I love Thursday

I sorta disappeared from blogging , I do that at times, I actually do that a lot in life, turning away and not doing much of anything. It's how I cope, coping with Life with my own thoughts and feeling. I love this photo beautiful, I'm a huge fan of mermaids and dark things so this is perfect

Since it's October and I'm so into Horror right now, I'm reading this book and I Love it!♥♥ it's pretty scary. and rumor has it they are coming out with a movie

blogs I love to read♥
tinybuddha.com
sincerly Kinsey
sometimes Sweet

 I would love to sit here and just read, or write in my journal , look out the window and drink coffee! it looks so wonderful and relaxing
                                              Love this shot all those candles, very beautiful


Monday, October 14, 2013

change and Fall

and BAM!!! It's fall Loving the fact that the weather finally changed to fall, none of this 80's decrees in October business because I'm so over that!

Taking another road, I need to try something different in my life, and I'm putting stop to the drama in my life and I'm headed to better things♥ I use to get so upset when people would speak bad about me , I would freak out and lash out, last night and today though I stepped back from it all and I just let things happen around me, and I didn't care. I didn't care what was being said or what people thought ...and I feel so much better about it

Today is a short post and I'm off to enjoy this weather

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Currently


Reading; The Power is within  You By Louise Hay
I'm a hug Louise Hay fan, I love her! and her inspiration to the world and all that she does, She makes every thing seem so easy and she always gives you great ideas on Self-love. I think I've read all her books so far and I've been happy with each one!

Thinking about: How many times I don't feel like I belong in the world I choose to live in, a lot of of times I just watch people around me and I grow really sad, Sad because I'm so different from them, sad because they seem so carefree and nothing bothers them. I look at the abusive women who Keeps staying in the relationship even though she tells all of us he beats her. I see so many manipulate others and make you all believe something that they are not. People want to believe a lie, rather then deal with real people.

Watching: Gossip Girl! This show is actually good I'm on season 4 right now and I'm kicking myself for never watching it in the first place. I wish I could live like that and it makes me miss NYC so much

Loving: I'm loving my Journey that I'm going through, my ups and downs my hurts and hard lessons, the people that come and go in my life, I'm loving Candy Crush, the fact that American Horror story is starting tonight,new adventures and crisp Mornings♥

Eating 

Now that Fall is Here I've been making a lot of soups and autumn dishes , Yummy!!!♥ Today I'm making a slow-cooked Minestrone with Parmesan cheese. Here's the Recipe

 ingredients
  • 1pound boneless beef chuck, cut into 1/2-inch cubes
  • 214 1/2ounce candiced tomatoes with basil, garlic, and oregano (undrained)
  • 214 ounce canbeef broth
  • 115 ounce cancannellini beans, rinsed and drained
  • 115 ounce canred kidney beans, rinsed and drained
  • 1cup thinly sliced carrots (2 medium)
  • 1/4teaspoon salt
  • 1/4teaspoon ground black pepper
  • 1cup dried bow tie pasta
  • 1medium yellow summer squash, halved lengthwise and sliced
  • Salt and freshly ground pepper
  • Grated Parmesan cheese (optional)
directions
1.In 5- to 5-1/2-quart slow cooker; combine beef, undrained tomatoes, broth, cannellini beans, kidney beans, carrots, salt, and pepper. Cover and cook on low-heat setting for 8 to 9 hours or on high-heat setting for 4 to 4-1/2 hours. Add pasta and squash to cooker (if using low-heat setting, turn to high-heat setting). Cover and cook 30 to 45 minutes more or until pasta is tender. Season with salt and pepper. Top with Parmesan cheese. Makes 8 servings.
nutrition facts (Slow-Cooked Minestrone)
  • Servings Per Recipe 8,
  •  
  • cal. (kcal) 220,
  •  
  • Fat, total (g) 3,
  •  
  • chol. (mg) 25,
  •  
  • sat. fat (g) 1,
  •  
  • carb. (g) 30,
  •  
  • Monosaturated fat (g) 1,
  •  
  • fiber (g) 7,
  •  
  • sugar (g) 7,
  •  
  • pro. (g) 23,
  •  
  • vit. A (IU) 3110,
  •  
  • vit. C (mg) 9,
  •  
  • Thiamin (mg) 0,
  •  
  • Riboflavin (mg) 0,
  •  
  • Niacin (mg) 3,
  •  
  • Pyridoxine (Vit. B6) (mg) 0,
  • Folate (µg) 24,
  •  
  • Cobalamin (Vit. B12) (µg) 1,
  •  
  • sodium (mg) 1266,
  •  
  • Potassium (mg) 455,
  • calcium (mg) 111,
  •  
  • iron (mg) 4,
  •  
  • Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet

























Monday, October 7, 2013

Motivational Monday #2

I love this quote,it's simply stated and so beautiful and something that all women should listen. Never apologize for who you are. Never feel bad for things that you want or thoughts that you have. Do not hide from the world, SHINE and Keep shining ♥ Love yourself, Love all of you, be kind to yourself and just be more understanding.

Hugs and Kisses
XOXO

Saturday, October 5, 2013

favorite things....

                                                               the Owens
One of my favorite movies and books is Practical Magic. I love the whole family and how they use natural magic.. Such a heart warming story

                         My favorite Quote, it's really that simple if you want to be happy just be!!

                                           Huge fan of Mermaids!!! this is really awesome

Friday, October 4, 2013

My Ahhhhhh Moment

The BOY : oops he did it again, hurt me and I played dumb and didn't think that I would go threw this again! why would I? why wouldn't someone that broke my heart twice not do it again!! I feel super stupid thinking that he would be changed and that my awesome personality would make him better and different and we would be so in love!! it hurts it hurts so bad and I'm going to be in pain for some time now but I think it's because of feeling stupid, there has to be someone out there someone I will love and love me so much and me him and we will cherish each other and be filled with so much love!! I know their will be. I deserve more then what Kyle gave me, a lot of times I wasn't even happy with him and I had to change to keep him into me. and really he was annoying and he was to cocky and he really wasn't that great looking, I do love him , yet maybe I only love him because I want some one to love, that could be it. and now I"m dealing with rejection and feeling unworthy because he doesn't want me. He doesn't know what he want! and I'm the one suffering even thought I don't think I really want him. maybe also my super sad depressed days were because of my period? maybe it heightened it? I have abandonment issues, he walked away with nothing without a word but a hurtful statement, if someone I didn't even really like say to me I would still be upset, because I care what people say to me about me. So okay Kyle left or took a break ;
lol but really I'm better then that, and I'm really am tired of wasting another life moment on someone that I have to explain my worthiness on, it's not worth it and it's done and I do feel better especially since I"m writing it all out dealing with how i feel. being honest and just going through the thought process of it all. I'm super strong and I'm super adorable and I have amazing funny personality I am extremely sweet. I look amazing at my age and you know what I can get a better body because I already had it. I've gotten lazy my fault and who knows it could have been depression because deep down I didn't want to be with kyle , it' was my soul  telling me screaming WTF are you doing. ya because I really do feel better so much alive and free and it's awesome . So Kyle doesn't want me eh okay catch a later and I will have moments will i will miss him and I'm going to remember that I am worthy of so much more and It's past issues that are stirring up and I am going to take deep breathe and remind myself of this moment when I had my break through because that's what life is about, right here right now. So Goodbye old lover Kyle, thank you for the lessons the joys, even the pain, I can't do it anymore and I'm really really excited about what is coming up next. with out you. Go me!!

Friendships: Asking a friend to meet up and get together so you can have a heart to heart and have them not even tell you yes and no or let me check your schedule is really a shitty thing and I'm not going to even give them a 2nd thought, I have been in allot of one sided relationships and yes most are my fault and I need to really see what is going on around me and be honest and take a deep breath and focus on what is going on. I have this habit of only seeing what I want , and either play the victim mode or the hero, and at times it depends if I'm moody or not.. Friendships should not be that way, even if I'm the only one in the whole area that thinks that! then so be it. I want a certain friendship and if I can't or don't feel like I have it then it's bye bye bye. I love everyone and I love being a friend, yet some people for whatever reason doesn't want my friendships and I have to be okay with that I really really have to. because it's going to seem fake, or wait it will be fake with them.

Today was a huge eye opener for me and with my writing. I spent the early afternoon hours talking and texting with my friends about the hardships and pain I was going through and I decided to just write and let it all out, and this is what I came up with. My AHHHHHHHH moment