I love anything that has to do with Buddha, I think it's funny and I chuckle deep inside of me, me yes ME ??? whiskey loving, big smoker that would rather snap out on people, love messages about peace and love and respecting yourself and others!! Deep down I believe it's because I wish I was more at peace with life, other then always shitting on it.
Yeah Yeah I get that it's all my own choices that I have made in life and if I wanted to somehow change it's really my choice. I don't have the tools inside of me ( or I havent opened them up yet) I don't know how to stop all those things that make me cringe, People say it's so easy just stop, sure it is, if it was I wouldn't struggle with this on a hourly bases.
Humans are always trying to find Happiness, my happiness Christ is really playing hide and seek, and mostly I just get angry and I give up and hide in bed till life calls me back. It's a cycle with me, and I do still hold on to hope that I will actually feel it 90% of the time.
So what I'm going to do in the mean time, just go through life, and try to make sense of it all and just hope that I get it. Reflect on myself and learn to shut my mouth and put the whiskey down plaster a smile on my face and skip through life.
It's been sometime since i wrote on this blog, almost a year. I tried to start another one but it didn't feel right, I felt like I was being something I wasnt. This blog has always been every side of me and I'm just going to keep writing.
Thank you to all my followers that have stuck around Love you lots