Thursday, November 25, 2010


I got this idea from one of my Fav. Blogs I like to read. Running with scissors 15 random facts about you! ♥ I think it's a really good idea. So Here it goes♥

1.When I was younger I had a 6 inch blue mohawk..yup I never really cared what people thought of me
2.I love making homemade Mexican food, yuppers from scratch and yup I hear from people i'm pretty good at it
3.My mind is filled with random little facts, that I just yell out at the most randomness times
4.I have Leukemia and I also have Epilepsy, but I'm happy and smiling each day
5.I was a singer in a punk band!!! I miss those days sorta
6.I've been clean for about 11 years off of all drugs which I'm so proud of myself
7.I love quotes and Affirmations!! and I completely believe in them!!♥
8.I use to be a hardcore tomboy but the past 3 years Im finding my girly side!
9.I use to have 22 piercings
10.I can't bake at all cookies,cakes it's not in me to
11.been all over the USA!!!
12. I love reading comic books
13. I own 175 pairs of them!!!
14. Dislike women who go to the bathroom in small groups
15. I believe in living every day like it's your last♥

So Ohkay lets hear some of yours!!!♥♥

Favorites on the web♥♥

Since I'm on the web I'm going to post what I can, The sun is starting to rise and I can hear the house stirring my family is getting up. My ten year old has already told me Good Morning but rolled over and went right back to sleep. Her hair matted to her check and her body twisted in a weird angle.

I wonder what my cats are doing at home knowing that they are probably getting into something they shouldn't be and I'm sure they are missing me so much♥

New Photo's of the Kitten Ceeno :

He won't let anyone near that toy he does this little growl that is not even scary at all lol he's so cute!♥

I want this library !!! I love the fireplace and all the books, I want to get all these books♥♥

I love owls!! always have..I find this pic tooo cute for words I want to find out how to make them!! I'm thinking of adding more owls to my wonderful owl tattoo, I know they are a very big thing now, but it's something I've always liked!♥

Well coffee time!!♥


Happy ThanksGiving!!!!! I wanted to start off with saying that..I've been waiting for this day for weeks. I love to eat and I love to cook lots of food for people and watch them enjoy it. 6am here and I've been up for almost 2 hours

10 Things I'm Thankful for:

1.My family-they have driven me around this past year, taken me to work picked me up ect..I'm very thankful for that

2.My children: Everyday They make me smile, every day they grow and enjoy new experiences and I'm happy and thankful that I get to experience that

3.I am thankful for having a job, in this day and age with the economy so many people can not work I am thankful that I have one..

4. Friends: My friends are truly amazing people!!! they have stuck by me this whole year where I have been tested just how strong I can be!!!

5.Kitchen: my kitchen has brought so many people close together!!! friends, come over and see what I'm cooking

6.Internet: I have met a lot of great amazing people on the internet,and I'm so happy that they are in my life

7. my bed: Ohkay I know that sounds silly but I'm so thankful for the times that I get to have soundless sleep in my bed!!!

8. Books: I love to read and I'm thankful for ever book I get my little fingers on!!!

9. Music: This year for me was the time for music when I was down I turned on music and let myself forget about all my problems

10. Me: I'm thankful for being me, thankful that I still can wake up with a smile on my face and support my friends and love ones

Friday, November 19, 2010

happy friday

So it's Friday!!! that means to me it's the last day off before I have to go back to work. I've been hitting it old school and got out the old playstation 2 and have been playing some old RPG's like final fantasy and such, trying to get a perfect score on these games!! exciting I know!!!

check it out doing that silly face that I do...

I'm a sucker in taking in people's unwanted cats, my goal I believe is to be the Cat lady and to be single the rest of my no that's a joke...

I took in my friends Kitten which I showed a pic before on here,he's a bangle and I have to say he is sooooooooo bad

His name is Ceeno! he has ripped the drywall off my walls, flicked off all the keys off my keyboard, showered with me... ate and stole my food off the stove!!! but you know he's the cutest little thing ever!

I woke up with a running nose and a stuffy head : ( I hope it's not going to last because I feel that I've gotten every kinda sickness you can think of and for real I'm done with it! so over it!

I hope soon I get internet so much,do i feel like i'm missing...

Thursday, November 18, 2010


So I got my owl tattoo and I love it!!! I think it turned out so nice,and he did such a great job on it. I've been getting alot of compliments on it as well.

This past week I have been doing alot of soul searching and reading some amazing books about how positive thinking can change your whole life around! I know now from experience that this really does work and I cut out the bad stuff from my thoughts and Keep thinking of postive things that I want to happen in my life!!! ♥

I've been hanging out with some great friends,and slowly weeding out the one's that really are not that good for me! I affirm and tell myself that I love me threw out the day! and every day I get stronger and healthy as well!!!

I've been reading a lot of books from Louise L Hay, who is really a wonderful writer and she helps you stay positive and gives you simple tools to do so!! so please read her books!

Thankful Thursday :

1.My girls I love them and they bring me joy every day

2. My friends they make me see things that I might now see about myself

3. My family they help me and deal with me being sick

4. Waking up!! being sick I stay positive and every morning I awake feeling blessed that I'm still.

what are you thankful for

Friday, November 12, 2010

Goals for November

Loving this ink! I'm pretty psyched about getting my owl tattoo done on monday...The great thing is I'm getting it done for free! so that even makes it better.

This month I'm going to be working on bettering me...Letting these stressful 8 months pass me by. Letting go of losing many people that I thought were my friends. Dealing with being yelled at and bullied Just because One Man has chosen to not be adult and take he's responsiablity in life .... it does it matter why my life has been upside down..all I know is that I'm not going to stand around and let them tear me down!

November Goals :

1. loving me

2.Having a clean house

3. being that happy person that I know I am

simple right?

It should be, I'm slowly getting rid of those friends that just kept not treating me right. I have so much to offer as a friend.

Any of you folks have goals for november ? I would like to hear them

IT's Friday!!!!!

Happy Friday !!!!
I love how everyone gets so excited about it being the weekend. I work every weekend so to me it's just another day, but I'm happy for everyone that has off and I hope you enjoy!!!♥
Mornings have been so brisk and chilly and I love it... I love drinking coffee and standing outside for a morning smoke and just watching the leaves blow and feeling the cool air!
Monday I"m getting a new tatto which I'm really excited about. IT's going to be a owl and I can't wait !!!

Butterfly is like happiness.The more you chase it the more it denies you.

I love this Quote!

Getting use to not having internet! I use to be so addicted to Facebook and other websites

hope all is good

Friday, November 5, 2010

A letter to my 16 self

I got this wonderful idea from a blog that I read Sometimes Sweet! She is amazing writer, I can only hope that one day I will be as good as she....

Dear 16 self,

You were always alone, and you dealt with your pain by yourself. Things will always get better. You hated your mother but in the end you will see that she did it out of love and she wanted to give you the strength to do things on your own. In the future your mother will tell you that she was wrong and that she was sorry for being so hard on you. She loves you!♥ My 16 self never had good friends and I hated living in PA. My NYC friends always had a blast and they told me that they loved and missed me. You did good in always remembering that now. I'm the only one left in my NYC friends.(I should clarify that I never had good friends in PA) You will learn that you should make due with what is handed to you and not wish for more, I dwelled so much on my misery I missed out on meeting the good people in this area. 16 self hated children, but now my children are my life and I would not have it any other way! 16 self you still put everyone before yourself and I hope soon that will stop, you will find love though he will walk away from you and hurt you, you know that it had to happen. Your sister will still be Jealous of you and try to destroy you but she will be their for your children almost like a second mother...Your strength will be inspirational to so many and you will hear about this daily. You will laugh even when you want to cry, and you will be goofy when you want to scream at the world... You will always have that understanding that people always told you that you had. An old soul is what they said.
Love yourself you are worth it

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Hello Thursday!!!

ugh this whole not having internet is really putting a damper on my blogging! I of course have been getting a lot of stuff done as well, but I have so much to catch up on!. got to get caught up on my reading of my favorite blogs.

I finally got my heat turn on...After begging my landlord and pleading to him he turned it on. Economy has been hard on everyone. This is why I'm gratefull for having a job, and getting a paycheck every single week. I am very grateful for this.

What are you grateful for?

I've been dealing with a lot of negativaty from people. I know that deep down it's their own problems with themselves but I don't see why peeps have to put me down to make them look better. Work on you how about that. I'm going to keep smiling and just show how strong I really am. Wish me luck on that lol..

Tomorow i"m going to go have sushi with a friend who is so dear to me he's like a uncle, I've secluded myself for the past two weeks and now it's time to get out their and enjoy my life again. I think that sounds amazing and wonderful.

This week I've been working on staying positive and not getting sucked into the gossip that's been going around I'm better then that I think lol no I know...

Monday, November 1, 2010

what's in my bag...

Hello!! everyone I've gotten this Idea by another blog I read The Crafty Fox pretty nice blog so check it out!!! anyway this is all that's in my purse and really my purse is usually pretty junky filled with so much stuff but since I just cleaned it out your in luck!

1. my purple comb I'm always teasing my hair and this comes in handy
2. I have 3 little bags in my purse one is a wallet for my cards, the pink one is for my lipgloss and perfume and the last is for my cash!!!
3. Is a little book I carry around I write things down that pop in my head or something that I hear that I fall in love with
4. always need meds!!!
5. I use sanitizer all the time!! yucky germs
6. A lighter yes I'm a smoker
7. you know this is a plug not sure for what but it's in my purse lol

Any way what's in your purse

What I'm grateful for....

My family, they are my life and they are my heart! Good morning and Happy Monday! and also it's November ... The Past is the Past let it go run out there and Scream it!! new month new beginnings! This month is a time to be grateful to everything in your life♥

My Grateful list : family
2. my friends
3. Having a Job
4. My knees.. i know sounds funny but I have torn ACL's and my knees are holding up pretty well
5. that I have a roof over my head
6. Having rides to work
7. Having People that love me
8. to the people who don't like me or who have hurt me ( I forgive you all)
9. having food
10. and my health

Here is just a couple to be thankful for....

What are you Thankful for?

* One day I will be able to talk about both my children but know that I love them both, it's hard when people lash out and end up hurting and ruining innocent people*