Monday, June 22, 2009

There comes a time in everyone's life that you have to take a deep breath and stand tall. I wish I was ready for this, but I was it, all my bitching all my complaining did not ready me for what happen last night. I was clueless and I was really hurt. Though this is how my life will be or how it's ending up I guess, it helped in the way to open my eyes and know that I'm not that person that everyone respected....or adored...is that their fault no it's mine!

A man without ethics is a wild beast loosed upon this world.
Albert Camus

I agree with this......

Last night I got my ass handed to me by Sperm donor, he said some pretty shitty things, to me and the table's were turn, I was in a weird place that I did not like. It all just took me for a surprise.....

People were talking about me, saying horrible things about my character, I was called a Whore, a slut, I was told that People said I was faking the pregnancy ... and I was looking for a father for my childern ...

It hurt.....

I felt like I couldn't breath, I stood there stunned that he was telling me this stuff that people were saying, that he wanted to hurt me so much..... People told me things about him but I asked him about it never accusing just questioning, I caught him in lies, I talked to him as a person never yelling.....

He came and attacked me in my home bar everyone stopped and listened with there smiles and there cat like grins. I wanted to punch all of them .. My best friend left me because she was embarrassed she threw over her shoulder to Sperm donor that he needed to go somewhere else to talk about this......

Then after he left me in this whirl wind of new hating feelings he left... just left so I had to deal with the stare's..... How did my life get to be this Soap opera ish ? How?

I was the funny girl, with the witty accent and acid tongue now I'm known as the psycho whore. It hurt

On a happier note though I got a job today... I start on Thursday which I'm very happy about ......

Something looking up

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