Friday, June 12, 2009

“My witness is the empty sky.”

Did you know that every night I go to bed with so many promises to myself that tomorrow will be better? These words are only spoken in my head, I never say them out loud. Maybe because I know that it's just going to be a disappointment, to awake and nothing new has changed.

I'm empty inside today, what the hell I'm empty every day......

Where did everyone go after two day's of being stuck in my home, with no rides and no phone except text messaging I'm truly starting to see that my life is not the grandest and how easy people disappear.

I started bleeding slightly about an hour ago....... just very lightly.... sigh almost unnoticeable, Though I had a miscarriages before two actually and they both started out the same. though with my daughter I bled a little bit in the first trimester as well so I'm holding on to that.

There would be no way that after all this fighting, I would lose this child? The Gods are not that cruel or are they?

Sperm donor won't win will he? his pretty lies, and honey tongue, He wouldn't win right?

To many thoughts going threw my head to many......

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